Beginning of 2012 – Goal

Church
- Spiritual Mature (in love with God More)
- Mission Trips
- Ministry – Nursery/Greeter/hospitality
- helper
- complete the BIBLE
- 12 books by spiritual Leaders
- complete building Fund (2011)
- give 2x more than this time BF
- bless Cate with her wedding
- A God fearing partner(Man) who have a heart for mission and a leader and went to SOT.
- 2 friend who save and become a disciple

Career
- 2 – - -
- executive
- giving back to the society

Family
- one family outing per month
- believe and trust
- spend more time with them

Personal
- lose weight to 58kG
- less sickness
- exercise 2x a month
- save up for degree
- save 10% of salary

Most people say that work is better than study And study is better than work..

But the fact is every one have a certain amount of stress in each of it…

Every stress we faced is like a test of our endurance.. The breaking point is to overcome what u failed the previous time!

Today is just a tot during my bus trip home abt SOT 2011!!

Today PST came to lay hand.. Didn’t fall but then Cate sharing came as a revelation to me.. “let’s us never be so familiar with the past experience cause the past might not lead us back to the same road” it is not about the method that count but rather let’s seek for fresh revelation and experience to go farther with God!!

The wonderful thing abt these 6mths are I dunno how I survive but yet I survive!! I known that if not from Him, I would have give up!!!

Today the word came so strong – laying down the past, release.. Dun use past for the present nor the future and move on to the another level.

Three things from 3 different songs

1. Be with U
I long to bring my Life an Offering

2.
Through Valley and Storm, Your WORDs keep me strong, My Refuge, Shelter and Song, I trust in YOU .

3. Servant Heart
No longer i but Christ living in me
Serving you for all eternity
My eyes set on You
In this race that I run
No longer my ways
Let your will be done
make me a servant
My heart ever true
Clinging to the Cross
I”ll follow you

It is going to be an end of a chapter but yet Lord, I know that is the beginning of another new chapter!
U are total sovereign and we are total depravity.

Like the servant who choose to nail his ears at the doorpost.
I choose to nail myself at the cross!

If there is anything I asked, I asked to begin this new chapter – Elaine Chen, a Bond Servant of Jesus Christ.

That mark the New Beginning and truly I was taken by God to go SOT 2011!

At the beginning of Christian Walk,  our personal desire and our old self are still above God. Although we yearn to be the top of everything and want to learn everything and grow to be bigger and stronger and in the spiritual thing best is lesser time than the others because all these seem so fresh to us and our zeal for the LORD is Super High cause Everything is God God, Daddy God, and still only God. It is good to yearn for all these and everything that come with it but it is another to digest everything and experience it eventutally.

As we can’t force a 1-year-old  to grow to 21-year-old.. we should learn not to force spiritual growth. We can be a 10 years christian but yet in God eyes, we are only babes till we experience the knowledge we have and allow God to put to test of it, we will by no means know if we pass or fail the test. Ultimately, the marker is GOD and HE is the one who elevate or put a person down.

If there is anything different between the old us and the New us,
We can only say LET JESUS INCREASE and “i” decrease no matter what stage we are in and the interesting thing about this Kingdom is that the older you get, the more the “i” factors should die and the more God factor should be manifested meaning the more we need lean on our Lord as we get older and no one is perfect to judge till HE COME BACK.

We had went through Foundation Truth 2 and Going on to perfection.. Now at Home Cell Group Leadership plus a half-finished bible study lesson on book of “Song of Solomon”.

The real ministry practice is going to start today.. at… nursery and the bible reading for 6 months…

Everything is starting on the accelerating pace…

But GOD is really at work in all of our life… u can see the changes that is happening… as well as the trial and tribulation… Faith Testing moment.. is knocking??

It is almost like everyday it blew your mind off.

Finally entered to Suntec… i remembered listening to Pst preach abt it since like 2005.

The expectation from Pst when he say NEW DAY was truly like hey lets put to gear 5 and win more people for the LORD.. but yet Pst under God guidance choose to put a break and say u know what? LETS Choose LOVE!!

This msg of LOVE just overwhelm me… It made me proud to be a city harvester and most of all, it made me reflect the love relationship with HIM.

4 types of LOVE… we learned before…The greatest of all is really AGAPE…truly i still havent come to the point of Agape.. but yet i prayed that as i walk on with GOD, i will learn to agape HIM.

This week Pst came to teach in Bible School, Topic on Songs of Solomon, it reminded of how i was very bitter with alot of things when the last time it was conducted as church wide bs.How at the end of the service, i ran to the CG and choose to be with the leader once again..

Truly i really dunno how to love people but i believe that as i walked with HIM, i will learn to love HIM and people.

If there is anything i learned in SOT, i will really say it is back to the basic… No formula of others but PRAYER, Reading HIS WORD, Fasting, Praise & Worship but none of this can be done unless WE CHOOSE TO LOVE!

Although i believe no matter 100 of times i can write abt nt falling but i think i will still fail at times… i pray that i will remember this blogpage that Now, even in the midst of falling…. I trust that GOD is there to say come on.. Lets do this over again, i will lead you… hence walk on… THIS love of HIS, i pray that till everlasting… I will alway be appreciative and never complacent.

I dunno who is really reading this blog but yet i want to encourage you that Indeed Love is the way of Life..Hence.. Do choose LOVE!! and may you be bless!

i told anyone that ask this question  ”i want to go bible school”

Why i want to go bible school come from a job ad from the newspaper.. it wrote looking for admin assistant with Bible Knowledge… it captivated me tat i remembered sticking on the wall to remind myself and i was really a babe in Christ and was only Sec 2.. i have been dreaming to go bible school to learned and grow in HIM.

Every time when i am abt to graduate from school or course, i will be thinking how to fulfill this dream but somethings will come along the way and this dream of mine like never come to pass… BUT GOD always worked in HIS TIMING and i believe THIS YEAR WILL BE THE BEST TIMING…

Since JAN 2o10, i was reminded that i am going to graduate in a year and i really want to go BIBLE SCHOOL but with the problems still existing how am i going to have the finance to fund it… hence i remembered that during  most of offering msg, i pray that the financial will come in and i will ask GOD for it..even my bday wish for last year was to go for SOT 2011.

Indeed GOD WORK in HIS WAY, My mum heard abt a bursary award and helped me to applied it.
little do i know that the amount will be $300 which is enough to pay for first month of SOT.
PRAISE THE LORD!!

After receiving that amount,I was reminded of HIS Promise toward me to fulfill this dream.
Looking back, This dream was planted in year 2002 and this year is 2011 meaning i waited for 9 years before it come to pass!
Do i want to give up the dream during these 9 years, Many Many Times.
But GOD always reminded me to keep on waiting and believe that This dream will come to pass.

Truly without HIM, i will not hold on as there is a limit on human stamina and strength
BUT With HIM, We can truly say “NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE” even it meant a long waiting time hence keep on holding on to the promises HE had spoken to you.
Believe that “IN HIS TIME”, it will surely come to PASS

I seriously dunno whAt will happen but then I guess by then it will be a total different story.

Taking what ours and letting you go.

I just chance upon my friend blog, met a friend, heard from a friend. Even my own wasn’t a great start.

Be it relationship, friendship, working, plan for this year.. It seem to all go wrong.

But yet through this time, we Still stick on to encourage each other and believe things will go better.

That is waT friend are all abt